15.5.09

I'm LOSE

I just felt terrible, annoying, unhappy, frustrated, nauseous about my life with no purpose... It should be wonderful, it should be happy, it should be touching, it should be flawless... What happen?

Uni life wasn't as perfect as I thought, it wasn't as happy as I felt. Everyone seems to be individually rather than a group. My life is just so boring! It sucks! It is like hell! Am I too negative? I don't know... I want to cry out loud and loud!!! Feel helpless, feel purposeless.

I felt unhappy with YOU... I felt it long time ago. Have you notice that? Why are you doing this to me? I had been giving you forgiveness for hundred thousand times and you return me the same shit things! How am I going to believe you again? What for to say sorry with no intention to change? No action I've seen! Deep in my heart, I still can tell that I LOVE YOU. But I don't want this, I'm sick of the boring and unchangeable attitude. What should I do?

Mom, I wish you were here to talk to me everyday to comfort me, I wish you can give me a hug, I wish those sucks things didn't happen in my life, I wish I could handle all of these, I wish I wish I wish I am not who I am.

2 則留言:

$6000 提到...

親愛的安慰的話我不懂的說,但想送你兩首歌,在我的Blog內,http://coolztracy.blogspot.com/
署名"給在迷失中的妳".
希望妳聽了能夠得到安慰與勇氣,
有一位主宰從不曾放棄妳和我.
祂在等待妳依靠祂.
"我們只管坦然無懼地來到施恩的寶座前,
為要得憐恤,蒙恩惠作隨時的幫助."
(來4:16)

匿名 提到...

也许你可以在祷告中向主打开你的心,让这位神去引导你的生活,更胜于自己去handle一切。不要绝望,人若没有信心是走步下去的,加油,佳慧